The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

I’m not writing much these days. Anyone who comes around here regularly already knows that. I’m busy, very busy, but not really any more busy than usual. I just can’t seem to manage my time very well.

My grandson is just wonderful. Absolutely perfect. Of course I don’t have to take care of him 24/7 so my opinion might be just a little bit biased. But he is truly precious. He and my daughter spent the night with us on Wed. (her hubby works midnight shift), I wish I hadn’t been so tired but I did get up and feed him about 6:30 a.m. and let Mom sleep in for a bit. Funny thing, I don’t remember loving that time of the morning so much when my own were that age. He was very hungry and very unhappy, but the time we spent together was so special to me.

Me and my son returned from a ‘mission trip’ with our church on Wed. evening about 10 p.m. (yes, I was dog tired but not too tired to have my ‘babies’ spend the night with us). I’ve been involved in church for the better part of my entire life but this was my first opportunity to make a trip like this. Me, my handicapped sister and another church member were the ‘Kitchen Goddesses’ for the team- that translates into cooks for the lay people! While I wasn’t at the worksite’s all the time the trip in and of itself was something hard to explain. In fact I’m still trying to find some good way to put all my feelings and emotions into the right words whether I publish them openly or just keep them in my own personal journal.

I’m having typical troubles at home. This is another subject that I can't properly put into words right now. It seems I become more indifferent everyday… this scares me. A little voice inside of me keeps telling me I’ll pull it together like I always do, but my confidence level is dropping.

These days I constantly seem to be asking myself the same question over and over, “Am I a grown-up yet?” and I don’t know why. I can’t seem to shake the feeling that changes are looming and I’m pretty sure that’s a good thing. I think.

I have been without computer access at my home for the last couple of weeks thus limiting my posts. I did try to check tBlog a few times last week at my office only to find it was down. From what I can gather it was down for quite sometime? I know this makes many people angry but I can hardly harbor too many ill feelings because of it, I  mean, I don't pay for this service, so how could I be too terribly upset? Granted, if tBlog was a paying site I would be bitchin' plenty! Heh. I am grateful to Rocky and Nick. They've provided me a place to vent for nearly 3 years now free of charge.

Things here have been busy as usual. The grandson is FANTASTIC! He's eating like crazy and his little scar on his tummy has healed just great. My daughter continues to surprise me as a mother. I'm very proud of her and for the first time in a lot of years I feel like I did a few things right as a parent.

All 4 of my boys are back home. I wish I could say this was a fantastic thing as well. Things are not horrible but I see the potential. The oldest step-son is not living with us, ok lets just say he's not sleeping at our home, he eats, showers, and just hangs around. The middle step-son is back for what I thought was a visit, but as it turns out he wants to move back here. Very mixed emotions about this one. The youngest step-son is in a world of trouble. He confessed to us a couple of weeks ago from Texas (while he was visiting with his Mom) that he and a friend had robbed another friends house. He has a court date day after tomorrow. I could go on and on and on about this one but won't just now.

So what's new in your world?

It's been crazy around here as usual!

The baby had to have surgery on Tuesday for a condition called 'pyloric stenosis', which appears to be a rather common problem. He's home doing fine, just wish the adults were doing as well.

I'll update soon!