Day 7
If It Weren't For Bad Luck...
BoToxIcated
I'll be the first to admit that I'm having trouble adjusting to my age. I was 41 in February. I've noticed lately that I study the faces of people I come in contact with more than I used to. "I wonder if he's my age?" or "Do I look older than her?"--the typical vanity things. The reason for this is simple, every morning when I look in the mirror I see a face that's starting to show some miles. Fine lines around my eyes, deepening creases in my forehead--things that I don't remember being there 5 or so years ago--atleast not so prominent. I'm trying to age gracefully...but it's hard.
Three of my girlfriends (all of whom are atleast a year older than me) have recently started getting BoTox injections. I'm a little skeptical for several reasons:
- The 3 of them are in their early 40's, that's a lot of years of upkeep, and money.
- Do you know what BoTox is? Botox is the brand name of a toxin produced by the bacterium Clostridium botulinum. In large amounts, this toxin can cause botulism, which you probably associate with food poisoning. Despite the fact that one of the most serious complications of botulism is paralysis, scientists have discovered a way to use it to human advantage. Small, diluted amounts can be directly injected into specific muscles causing controlled weakening of the muscles...BOTULISM?? That's right it's poision! Yes, I know they say it's 'relatively' safe, but what does that mean? This stuff was used in the 19th Century to wipe out countries. I'm just not comfortable with shooting the stuff under my skin. Or am I?
- By using BoTox what kind of message am I sending my kids? Alright this might be stretching it, but honestly I'd be ashamed for my kids to know I was doing it. All their lives I've preached that we should never judge people by their appearance (even if society does) and to accept people as they are. If I were using it for a medical reason or to repair damage caused in an accident that's one thing, but simply because I can't accept the fact that I am not 20 years old?
I am somewhat ashamed as I type this. I have overcome enormous obstacles in my life, why in the hell do I give one second's time to worrying about something that I should embrace?
Would you consider BoTox? It's pretty cheap and easy to obtain. Or have you had a cosmetic enhancement or know someone who has? Just curious.
This...
Double Standard
I have a friend, we'll call her Amy. Amy is a beautiful woman. She has a beautiful face. In the last couple of years Amy has battled a hormonal problem that caused her to gain some weight. Ok, she gained like 50 lbs. Now Amy is finally getting her endocrine system in check and the lb's are melting away. She's down about 25 pounds. Granted she's going through a boat load of personal problems, primarily man troubles. You saw that coming, right? It's like I always say, "If it's got a transmission or testicles there's bound to trouble!"
Amy really is a very pretty woman, striking blue eyes, one of the few women that can rival me in the hair department, and the complexion most young girls envy. She's not what I could call 'big', I know by medical standards she's still overweight, but she's just a little chunky--that even sounds degrading! Anyway, Amy's had this enormous crush on a guy for over 4 years. As far as I'm concerned he's one big pile of loser human genetics, but for some reason she's powerless around him. He doesn't have one ounce of tact and social graces are even more scarce. Twice now he's publically humiliated her--only to have her still grasping at straws.
The idiot man told a mutual friend of ours, and I quote: "I've tried to 'be into her' but I just can't. I mean there's just NO physical attraction. And the two times we had sex it was just plain disgusting." end quote. Now...I don't like having this inside info, part of me wants desperately to tell Amy what the vermin said, but the human, I've been where you're at girlfriend part of me wouldn't dare. BUT the kicker is he also said, "You know, she's gained weight and all." AND ALL? wtf? Why is it that we women, will look at a gainfully employed, decent man and say, "he's a big guy, but isn't he cute." But arrogant men seem fixated on the fact that we don't look like Jessica Simpson. Yes, the 'ol double standard.
This clown is a 40 yr. old Kevin Federline wannabe. He wears two big cubic zirconia studs in his ears--yes I know they're fake he can't even pay his frickin rent! And he struts around like he's doing the rest of us a favor by just sharing the same oxygen. My friend Amy, is a single Mother of four. Her oldest son just graduated college--she paid his entire last years' tuition by herself. She runs her own business, owns two homes, has a credit line I can only dream about and she's wasting one mili-second of time pinning over him?
In a word, yes, she is. And she's damn near driving the rest of us crazy doing it. My question is, "Why do perfectly capable women, successful and independent women, seem to be drawn to this type of man?" He even had the audacity to call her that horribly ugly "C" word--grounds for castration in my book.
While I know she deserves better, there's no convincing her of that. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she thinks that 'one day he'll realize he really does love her' and they'll be together--did I mention he's currently dating someone else? How do you console a friend like this? How do you tell one of your best friends to grow a spine and get the heck over it?
Search And Rescue
I've never been a 'premium' user here at t-BLOG, so before the updates I never was able to see who was visiting my blog. I have been entertained for hours (ok, maybe not hours but quite a few minutes) with the search result. Here's a few of the most recent...
a-fib stopped with convert Ok ya this one isn't much of a surprise since I blog frequently about my chronic A-Fib. Boring...next...
ace_young Yum...However, he's just a little too theatrical/melodramatic even for me. We need to just sit him in the corner with his mouth closed and look pretty. Ya, that will work!
sexy nude 40 yr old women Well...this could garner a lot of responses from me. I have no clue what post this is in (probably several, heh) and not really sure I want to investigate. Let me say this, the 40's are not a horrible time of life, in fact it's actually pretty good. But this is the point where gravity decides to pull a nasty joke on most of us. It ain't pretty for the majority of us, and the bad part is we all pretty much know it's downhill from here!
the good and the bad about having children Ok, I'm just toooooo tired to go here tonight. Let's just say I love them dearly--99.9% of the time, heh.
cleveland clinic Been searching this one a lot lately. We leave for Cleveland April 19th. A nervous wreck!
manufactered homes REALLY no clue on this one. But, I do live in the South--trailer home hell.
13 yr old pubic Scary. Gawd I could be on the next Dateline NBC sting operation for sexual predators. ACK!
ugly girls who thinks they're hot Hmmm did my teenaged boys take over my blog without me knowing it?
what's the difference between a wifey , girlfriend 25 lbs. and the desire to have sex ANYTIME.
While entertaining, I do wonder about some of the things people are searching for out there...don't you?
Dodging The Bullet...Again
Several people have dropped me a t-mail asking if I was ok after the recent storms in TN...I am :) Luckily I live in East TN and we've managed to dodge the bullet for the last two weekends. Unfortunately people in West and Middle TN have not been so lucky. Please keep these people in your thoughts and prayers, their lives have been completely turned upside down at the hand of Mother Nature.
Outside of the storms there's not a heck of a lot more going on. Well that's not entirely true, as an employee of a church this season is our second busiest time of year. In the past week with the help of some volunteers I've stuffed over 1,100 Easter eggs! The clouds broke this morning just in time for us to hide them.
So what's new with you?
Sweet Nectar
I bought some Blackberry wine today at a local winery. I don't like to eat blackberries, it's all those little seeds I truly dislike. But this wine, it's good. It's like a souped up version of grape Kool-Aid. Almost as good as Welch's Grape Juice, I really like that stuff. I remember having it on special occasions when I was young. We used to ask my Mother to buy it for us constantly to which she'd explain it was just too expensive for everyday use and we'd just stick to the Donald Duck frozen concentrated orange juice.
My parents weren't really financially strapped but they were very frugal where certain things were concerned, like Welch's and Hostess Twinkies. I thought for a long time that we were very poor because we never had things like Hamburger Helper or Kraft Macaroni & Cheese. All our cakes were homemade and my Mother and Grandmother canned vegetables from our summer garden. We also had freshly brewed iced tea each and every day. I reasoned we must be poor since we never have Coke!
One of the first things I did when I moved out was buy some Hamburger Helper...I quickly realized that I wasn't missing much. Same goes for the mac & cheese.
Luckily many things in life turn out to be like Hamburger Helper!
