The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

...automatic drafts? I just LOVE not having to worry with writing checks to pay bills. I LOVE having that payment jerked out and me never having to do anything 'cept have the money in the account. I wish I could do EVERYTHING electronically, lol.

FYI while I was in the mountains last week on business I hit a mega sale at The  Vanity Fair outlet store and just got a boatload of goodies, the most exciting was the new bras. YAY no more wire poking me in the pits. While on this little business trip I did something I'd never done before. I ate alone. Yes, in all my 40 years I had never walked into a restaurant alone and eaten a meal. I have now. It was a little victory I suppose. I was surprised at how easy it was. I'd often wondered as watching other lone eaters if they felt self-conscious. Maybe they had, but I didn't. I completely enjoyed my meal then high-tailed it back to my hotel to see the premiere of Survivor. It was a pretty cool trip. I drove around alone and cried a little, laughed a little and remembered a lot. I looked at the Carter's and Osh Gosh B'Gosh outlets and couldn't believe it had been so long since I'd shopped in them. I was amazed my children were so old and in the same bittersweet moment ached because my Mother was gone, we'd shopped those stores together many times.

That short break did my soul and spirit good. And hey, when you can get a good quality bra for cheap to boot,  color me there!

SO PISSED

Just penned a wonderful blog entry only to have it disappear into the t-BLOG black hole. Rat bastards. I may have to relocate myself. Sheesh.

I don't even have the strength to try and remember what I'd typed either, lol. Maybe tomorrow.

Sooooo I need to plan something for dinner and take-out's not really an option since we've been doing that a lot lately. Anybody got any quick dinner ideas?

Something that will go well with my nerve pill please, lol. Here's hoping you're having a great Wednesday :)

First off I'd like to say how wonderful this blogging community is! I wish that I'd had the time to thank each one of you individually but time restraints and responsibilities have just made that impossible. My words here will never convey the true heartfelt kindness you've shown me, and for that I thank you.

I haven't been very social as of late. I really don't know why other than the fact that I am just tired of talking about death. In the same vein I would like to blog about death, I just don't have the time yet. Blogging is a way for me to vent in a very one-sided arena, and right now that seems like a good thing.

I've heard "I know what you're going through" so many times I could puke. I know these people meant well, but they in NO way know how I feel, because every experience like this has to be vastly different. Doesn't it?

At any rate I am back in the office and hopefully will be able to become a little more active here. I miss you all terribly. I still have my bad hours and good hours, I haven't worked up to good days and bad days yet, but I see them on the horizion :)

I also hope to be able to start reading each of you again, I really, really have missed that. I'm considering just biting the bullet and buying a notebook where I could blog from the bathroom if I so desired, lol.

Thank you all again, from the bottom of my heart. I'm on  my way back, just taking the scenic route. *hugs*

To all of my dear blogging friends,

It is with great saddness I report that my Mother passed away on Monday September 5th.

Presently my sister and I are knee-deep in all the arrangements that have to be made, for those of you who have been through this horrible experience, no other explanation is needed. To everyone else, please know your thoughts and prayers were greatly appreciated and I ask that you continue to remember me and my family.

I hope to be back in touch with all of you very soon as well as continuing to blog.

Shannon